Always say...

how infatuated I am with life, even tattooed it on my body, to remind myself how beautiful and full of possibilities it is...the journey, my school...the 34th year of my life has been so far the most important year of my life...everything's so clear...when I was seventeen I wrote and I am quotting myself "when i look in the mirror, the person staring back at me does not seem real, some times i wish i could take this little girl in me and tell her is ok, i know it makes no sense but somehow that little girl seems so much stronger than me..." have tears running down my face thinking of that dark place I was at at that time of my life...today when I look in the mirror I see me, I see the strength and the beauty of me, all the things that make me me...it's been a long road with a lot of ups and downs and there were moments that felt I  wasn't going to make it at the end of the tunnel, wasn't going to find my way out, days that even blinking my eyes felt tiring...but I did...I heard those birds sing for the first time, saw the colors, saw life through different eyes...like a little kid wanted to feel and see everything, getting overwhelmed at times...that was ten years ago. Ten years ago that little girl that was a lost cause went against all odds...the more I was rising from the grave the more he was getting in...the stronger I got the weaker he did...as if he had made a deal deal with God...we all serve our purpose in life, he served his, he saved me...everyday when I wake up, I try to make the best out of the second chance I got in this life...check myself at all times, making sure I am correct in my interactions with people and true to myself, that I am the best I can be with the experiences I have...never said I am perfect but I'm tryng to be the best I can.