Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Film making...

is telling a story through pictures, is a team work... we all follow the director’s vision, we contribute with what we do best but it is still the director’s vision…as long as the team believes in the vision and we are all in the same team then the journey of discovery begins…I love the unfolding of the journey, from the first table read to the it’s a wrap…one of my first acting teachers once said, if you are not in love with your character you can never become that person…I choose characters that are very far away from me, the more I have to learn and the more I have to adjust the easier it is for me to get there and of course is more exiting…I use everyone and everything in my work…and is always the oddest little detail that makes that character come to life…I am not a good actor, I have to go there, I have to feel it…I have to relate it to it and unfortunately I do bring it home…being an actor let’s face it, is a bit sociopathic…we transform into other people we make real to us what everyday people call “it’s just a movie”…I like to call it a mode, and if I've explored a mode, I see no point on recreating a similar character on a different film, I’ve been there done that…today, I went to an audition, it’s about the stages of grief…hits home…it’s very personal, and it’s hard using something so personal, is like standing naked on Sunset Strip on a Saturday night…I know that I would love to share the pain of those days, how your world as you know it can come to an end, how a human soul can go through the motions…how everything stops…in film is always portrayed as something so dramatic, the phone call, the scream…well it's not, you freeze, there’s no sound, everything stops and you, you just stand there all alone…I love the director I met today, she guided me right back to that day, I remembered details I forgot…
I was seven when I first said I’m going to be an actor and if you ask me now how I survived without acting in the last ten years, I have no idea why I pushed away something that makes me feel so alive, but hey I was miserable the last ten years, I was suffocating and it took one person telling me I guess you did not love it enough to jump right back to it…success to me is to be able to grow as an artist and as a human being with brilliant people…to tell stories, to find truths and touch souls and I’ve learned that if a director has no vision or does not know how to work with actors then is not my kind of director…I worked and met amazing brilliant human souls the last few months, thank you all, for making it so real to me that I’m doing the right thing going back to where I belong…thank you for letting me be a part of your journeys…