Met an author...

a few months back through Tony, we talked a little bit about what I am doing, then run into him again, on the perfect time when the biggest dilemma I have in this moment is if I am developing  a tragedy, or a sort of feel good movie, ending wise at least... Do I really want Olufemi to overcome her tragic flaw, or do I want no redemption... Well, I am Greek after all... I want it to touch the every day reality, I want people to see what makes them uncomfortable, that we choose to live in a world full of people alone...that we can have all the money in the world but we can never thrive without intimacy...this is the town I live in half of my life, everyone is looking for something better, and my Robert sure cared for Olufemi but he gave up, he chose the easy way out, the sure thing...yes he could have melted her little cold heart, taught her love but he chose not to... So I am going through my thoughts with him and he says "I am happy you are choosing the hard way out" and I say "what's your last name, I want to Google you, so I read one of yours books, see your reality"  WOW! he 's the author of one my favorite books, the only book I have bought and gave to people...WOW! 

I do read...

not big on novels, I am visual so I would choose to watch a film...but I am infatuated with humans, life, so I love any book that helps me understand me and my kind...human behavior, human interaction...the human brain in all it's grace...how much we can achieve if we only use it, appreciate it...FaCiNaTiNg!...we are all different  but in some sort of way the same...different programing...and yes, we are born with certain qualities but,  they are useless if we do not develop them. Freedom, is more important than knowledge, even talent...knowing who you are, being comfortable under your own skin...that's the gift, the gift of life...knowing what you need to come alive...when people ask me why I am always happy I  say "you are as happy as you make up your mind to be"... I'm not always happy but out of my life experiences; I have learned that life is short and it's what we make out of it, so I choose to see the bright side of things. And if something hurts, I cry, I let it out, and I move on...I process fast, but not because I have no emotions like people have told me in the past but because one of my best qualities, is that I have seen the bigger picture from the beginning, and I made a conscious decision to want to have it as an experience...exploring...I do come from an actor's prospective, so I need to experience things and use them...I'm not saying I always know the outcome. I have been surprised at times but I have also gotten mad at myself for knowing and still having the need to explore...
Why am I writing this today?  'cause I love every single frame of this little thing that is called life. It fascinates me. It inspires me... It makes me feel alive...